Today is my first day of obgyn as an intern. I have delivered one baby today and went to one c-section. My reaction has not changed from the first time I have seen a birth. In one word: HORRIFIC! I know it may be funny that I say that. I know so many people who think: "Isn't it amazing," or "that is so great that you get to deliver babies all day." Hell no. I simply do not like it. It seems so wrong and so gruesome. I know, I know, it is part of life and that most women go through it but it is definitely not something I am looking forward to. I also wonder what the husbands think about that part of your anatomy after that huge head comes out, among other stuff. I feel like Gary would pass out. He cannot handle anything medically related.
Actually the whole process of having a child is pretty distressing to me, (besides the first part!). I know some people like pregnancy. In my short experience with it, it was awful. You get sick for no reason, have gastric reflux, get fat and swollen, can't drink and in return you get a "glow" Whatever.
So maybe people with kids will help me put this in perspective. It's all worth it in the end right? When you are holding your little baby in your arms...
While I am on the subject. Gary and I have proven to ourselves that we are not able to handle disruption in our lives so easily. Our little puppy, Lander, has proven to be a handful. Gary and I have shared our lives together for so long that we have our routine down. Now, we have this new little guy who we have to play with and walk all the time, and feed, and train that we are exhausted. We are grouchy towards each other and we aren't doing the things that we normally do. Gary said: "Well I guess I just don't work out anymore." and I have not been able to cook as much or go grocery shopping etc. Plus our end of the evening relaxation routine has not been happening. But, we do love the little guy. He is so great! So maybe it will be worth it in the end.
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